We've been busy this month, celebrating Christmas by sharing the gift of dance! Company member Katie Dearman recounts some of her favorite moments and the special gifts she received during our recent performances across Houston.
When I started with Ad Deum
a few months ago, I knew that outreach was an important component of the
company’s regular season. As a faith-based organization, of course “serving
others” would be part of what I signed up for. Perhaps I assumed that “outreach”
would look like it does for many other organizations: a hospital visit squeezed
in here or a homeless shelter visit added on there. It would be another thing
on the checklist: we toured to these places, we performed in these festivals,
and oh yeah, we did that outreach thing, too.
But oh, how wrong I was and how
much the Lord had to teach me! In the past few weeks alone, God has shown me
that I can dance beautifully and serve others at the same time. I can sweat at
the barre and intercede for cancer patients all in one day. My roles as
professional dancer and missionary do not—and should not—fit into separate
compartments. It is who I am, who God has called me to be… and Ad Deum is the
place where He has brought me to live out that beautiful calling.
Annual picture by the Christmas tree after performing at M.D. Anderson |
During the few weeks between
Thanksgiving and Christmas, Ad Deum performed at M.D. Anderson Cancer Center, University Baptist Church, Star of Hope Transitional Living Center, Belmont Village Senior Living, and
M.D. Anderson Rotary
House International (a hotel for out-of-town patients and families). I
adored dancing pieces like “Oh Holy Night” and “What Child is This?” in each of
these unique locations. The first and the last, however, were particularly
meaningful to me.
Nine years ago, I lost my
dad to melanoma cancer. He was treated at M.D. Anderson, the very best place he
could have been, but cancer took over his body and stole his life. This
devastating loss led me to the Lord at age 14 and I committed my life to
following and serving Him.
In college, I dove head
first into the fight against cancer by participating in Relay for
Life and raising money for the American Cancer Society. In fact, I raised
over $100,000 during my four years in college. This huge accomplishment brought
deep healing in my grieving process and a great sense of purpose as I worked in
a very practical way to fight against cancer.
Since graduating in May of
2015, however, I haven’t participated in Relay for Life or done any
fundraising. I’ve felt an emptiness, a weight of guilt… How am I honoring my
dad’s life? What am I doing to fight back against this disease that took him
from me? Am I wasting my talents and energy? In these moments of guilt and lack
of direction, I felt like cancer was winning all over again. But the Lord, in
His mercy, invaded those lies and redirected my heart, and He did so through Ad
Deum.
I am so thankful for the
financial generosity of others who joined alongside me in the battle against
cancer, and I will continue raising money for research for a cure. But God is
showing me another way that I can fight, a way to pray and comfort, a way to
usher in physical and spiritual healing… through my art.
When I moved and swayed and
swirled and worshiped in the lobby of M.D. Anderson Rotary House in front of
cancer patients and their families—people walking through exactly what I walked
through nine years ago—the Lord was at work. As I danced to the words, “Chains
shall He break for the slave is our brother, and in His name all oppression
shall cease,” I felt the Holy Spirit fiercely battling against the chains of
cancer and the oppression of fear and grief.
When we do these outreach
performances, our mission is so much more than delivering a little Christmas
cheer through our pretty dresses and bright smiles. Yes, that is so important.
But we are partnering with God in His ministry of reconciliation, of binding up
the broken hearted and setting the captives free. Dance has the power to do
these things because art ignited by the Holy Spirit is transformative. It
changes hearts and lives.
So as I reflect upon our
marathon of outreach performances, I am thanking God that intercession and
healing are an integral part of His purposes for Ad Deum. We don’t perform as
dancers sometimes and as missionaries other times. Whether at the Wortham
Center in the heart of Houston’s Theater District or in a hospital, God will
work in mighty ways through our dancing when we submit it to Him.
Dancing
to “Oh Holy Night” can truly break the chains of cancer when God wills it, for
He is God, and all things are possible through Him. Amen.
~ Katie
Photo Credit: Sarah Lee Roes |
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